yep this is what I expected, it's sad but true.
Often our dreams become nightmares if we don’t cultivate them in the right way. If we expect our dream to be just handed to us or that it will just happen on its own we risk spinning our wheels and getting nowhere. Then there is the scenario we’ve all been warned about. “Be careful what you ask for, you might actually get it.” That is personally the worst thing anyone has ever said to me because if you aren’t willing to work hard to get what you asked for in the first place then not only do you not deserve it. You deserve any ill that befalls you for not being prepared for whatever you were wanting.
So when I dreamt of coming to China, I did all the research a person could do. I worked hard to have backup plan, after backup plan. What did I think I was going to find in China? I have to admit that even though I did research my vision of this dream was off. I could help but thinking I’d find the rickshaws from the old Chinese movies. Advanced civilization I expected but not in the degree that I saw when I got here.
There was culture shock but not really like stepping onto another planet as I expected. There were plenty of creature comforts from back home here and that lead me to believe my stress would just disappear in China, which did happen but was replaced by new stress. What was my reality in China? To be honest I found life, a different life with different joys and different sorrows but a life none the less.
I found a better life. It isn’t stress free and it isn’t a living vacation, but it is great and I do feel more alive than I have in 15 years. I think the best reality of this dream is that I see a future. Back home, there was nothing, just the decay of a once great society and the oppression of the corporate machine. Here in China I see that corporate machine also, but it doesn’t touch me yet. I can see it from the outside for the first time. It’s amazing how a person can change their opinions if one can change their perspective. I think international travel should be a requirement for American’s just so we can truly see how the world works and how the world see us.
I still keep up with U.S. news and what I hear makes me ill and afraid for my friends back home. It’s like the people really have become sheeple just waiting to be herded to the slaughter, but I will keep my hopes up and pray that there will be some sanity left in my homeland if and when I return. Who would have guessed I’d have it so good?
It’s pretty damn scary thinking about all my friends who’ve lost jobs back home and to see how well I’m living in another country. Even though my dreams fell short of reality as most dreams do. It still reminds me that I made the best decision I could have in my life. I’ve gone around the world to find true freedom and found it in a Communist country.
Some of them abused this friendly, any way, wish you good time in China and find the beauty of china, be a good foreigner in china too :)
Simple as that.
Hands down, best country on Earth.
I pledge allegiance, to the flag, of CHINA!