Contentment quote from Lao Tzu image
Sheeesh, the way I'm living, I am starting to think I'm getting too comfortable. Like I have no damn life. Possibly it is true! It seems like work, home, sleep and then do it all over again. Days are passing by in a blink of an eye. Especially since a new job for the wife began in June. Top that off with her busy studying her English classes, she barely has time to spare. Typical home life. It's starting to get too comfy around here and I don't like it.
Before her new Job we were both together spending a lot of time (...well, at least in the same room) in the home-office. She on her computer and me on mine. We would share in cooking meals and make spontaneous outings on the weekends to get out of the house if the weather is good. But since the job, it seems I see less and less of her now. Our schedules conflict. I work early, She goes to class later in the morning and then she has work after class. I get home, and she's still working. Four to six hours later, I pick her up from work, she has only got an hour or two to finish homework, settle in and do whatever before she needs to hit the bed. And I'm already in the bed passed out watching a movie because I have work early the next morning. Life is getting damn routine. Boring!
Before marriage, living the single life, I was running full-hardcore! I would be online chatting up several ladies for many many hours. Going out on dates. Dinners, Drinks, and whatever fun things happen after. ;) But living that lifestyle after so many years, I got worn-out. Tired of it all. Felt it was time to get serious. Find one good woman to marry. Done! Done with all those hours a day spent chatting to women. So I did it. My time has been freed up. So here I am. Living the married life. And it is good. Things are cool. But now I have more time on my hands. What the hell to do with this time on my hands? It's not like I can be a bad boy and start partying again. My wife might feel a bit left out being that she is so busy. But then again, maybe that is not my problem. I'd be happy to invite her, but she has her passion with school and work at the moment. She is fine. Me? I'm still floundering. CLM was a passion at one time. I liked catching scammers and getting them thrown in CLM Prison. But it got old quick. Jeeze, I got to get a damn LIFE! NO question this is me being stuck in a rut. ...What the hell is a rut, anyway? Hmm, let me look it up…
Rut: n. 1. A sunken track or groove made by the passage of vehicles. 2. A fixed, usually boring routine.
Yup, that is me! Fixed in a boring-ass routine. Time to take my own advice and change. I mean it is not like I don't have tons of interests. Maybe it is my focus. I'm fronting a funk/r&B dance band that is finally getting started. Some would think that's pretty exciting. I just finished a remodel of the kitchen as some of you know. I still need to plan a remodel of my bathroom, home office, bedroom and dining room…Ok, f*ck-it, I admit I want to remodel the entire house, but money doesn't go on trees! One remodel a year cool by me. I have thousands of movies in my collection that I haven't even watched. Too many, but damn, I don't want to be a couch potato! Not now at least. Plenty of time for that when I retire. Playstation 3 gaming. Shoot up some aliens, I guess, but that can get boring with me fairly quickly. I have the internet which of course allows me to peek into any part of the world and subject matter I wish and I can always get lost on my Mac computer for hours, but sitting on the computer for hours is not so different from being a couch potato, is it? Maybe try my hand at writing a book/novel; a script that I always wanted to try. I have so many interests and things that I can do now with all this free time and yet, I still feel bored! Wait a minute...could it be?...Am I missing my wife? Damn, could that be it?
Maybe it's time to take my own advice and CHANGE! No not my wife! Haaha! I know there were a few of you thinking it! No, some other change, but what kind of change? I could be out partying with the wife but she's kind of ended her party days (a complete reversal from when I first met her. :) She's now more work hard, studious sort, staying home, and enjoying the peaceful life here in Boston. What happened to the party girl I met in China?!!!
"Aiyaaaah, I have a damn "AUNTIE" on my hands now! My life is so poor! Such a young woman acting like an auntie, now!"
Is this what happens when women get married? They become responsible and conservative? Life slows down and they take small steps in activities? No need to impress the men any longer. Why put forth the effort? Wow... Where is the woman wearing the 5" heels, sexy outfits and make up; strutting her stuff down the street ready to party? Where's that Chinese woman, I met?!! Damn! Ok, ok, I can't complain. My wife is a very good woman. She's a great wife. Even if her acting like an auntie at times can feel a bit disappointing. Everyone grows up sooner or later, right? She's got a new life now. A busy woman trying to improve her life! I know. She has a lot on her plate. I can understand that. I respect that. She's is focusing. Trying to pave her road in this life. Work, Study, etc. She once told me, she's a wife now; no need to club and party anymore....wish she had told me that before we got married! Haha!
So married life is a bit mellower than what I'm used to. When I can get her attention, we'll sit and watch a movie together, if I am lucky. Since her working, I'm starting to see more and more alone-time and less of her. So I need to find a new interest or passion to keep my self active and alive. Could it be...that just maybe, I don't need anything new… Maybe I am just fighting contentment. The time in life where things become relaxed and there's no stress or pressure to find a woman, etc. Should I be fighting for my career and reaching a higher aspirations? When is enough, enough? Should we always be doing something and staying motivated like ROBOTS. Maybe we all can learn something new by just standing still for a moment. What exactly is wrong with a person accepting to chill and cool out, sit back, stretch his or her legs out, watching the world pass by and enjoy the quiet. Could taking on this pause in contentment and watching the rest of the rats run the race be a unique and interesting learning experience for a change?......................................................................
KIDDING!!! You're never OLD until you say you are. Personally, I think that, like myself, you're just in a good place right now - sit back, enjoy it, and hope it never ends. Wife will be out of school soon enough and then you can get back into a little night life, some great travel and a beautiful home together. How can it get any better than that?
I'll be thinking of you at Hooter's. Cheers!
But I feel 13! ;)
I don't know what you old-farts are talking about! Haaaha! Yea, I'm getting up there...in age, no question. Say, my older brethren, what's the mid-crisis like?! How will I know when I'm there?!! Do I start thinking I need to buy a sports car to be hip and all that? I still like my laid back Lincoln. :D
Oh, well, I've been ready for my cane and rocking chair on the porch for the longest time!!! I think I started thinking about it at 28 years old. I'm so damn ready for it! As long as the bouncers will let an old ass fool like me get my groove on in a club once in a blue moon, all will be cool! ;)
Old-men UNITE!!! ;)
If I had any hair it would be falling out by now! Or I'd be pulling it out! How JohnAbbot has his hair, I don't know! Maybe he got himself a nice mature older woman so she's a bit more mellower than mine.
I met Aishan at 28/29 years old. She's 31 now. Only now am I starting to see her calm down, but only a little bit. She's still young and wild and it is a test to my patience daily. Especially since I've joined the fold of the Old Bastards with this blog! With Aishan, I am starting to think I must practice Kung fu to protect myself! Maybe I should look up LotusMaster for some training! She's the most physical woman when it comes to play-fighting! What the hell? Play-fighting? Really? It's like getting a child all riled up and playful and then they don't know when to stop. "Ok, stop! Calm down! Enough! No more! I quit. Stop hitting me! Ok, ok, OKAAAAAAY!!!!" Aiyaaaaah, she's a bloody mess and I try to keep her calm as possible! NO coffee is allowed in my house! HaahaA! I try to limit any physical playful fights that she seems to like to start up! She's 31 now and I can't wait until she reaches 40 and she's not so ACTIVE to beat me up!
Seriously, DoctorJ, with a woman in your life there will always be drama and disagreements. Yes, there will be wonderful and happy times as well. But you must take the good with the bad. :) Single vs. married...damned if you do and damned if you don't. Single life was peaceful, free, but it can be lonely. Married life can be wonderful, but it is not about YOU anymore. Sharing a life can be good and bad. Always something new to learn. Why do you think there's so many divorces. Two people are contantly evolving and changing. Minds change. Personalities change. Yin and Yang, my man.
Find a woman when you feel you are READY to take that leap of faith. Make sure she's ready for that leap too. And then get ready to pray and work you butt off to keep happy! :) Happiness takes work. It is not effortless. Unfortunately, the wife doesn't want me putting our business out there so I am on a leash with sharing our personal lives too much. Such is life. But I always try to slip in something tasty tidbits for ya, when I can. ;)